CONFESSION.
2011 is going to end soon in like two weeks times, i shall post before the new start of 2012. I guess this year is just an average year for me. Sometimes it just feels like no matter how hard I try, I can't get anything right. friendships fail, relationships fail, studies fail, and I perpetually let anyone who has faith in me, down. where is this path leading to? Firstly, i only start being serious with god's word, study, relationship etc.. like during march. I regretted a lot things, not obey god's word. Didn't listen to my parents, honestly speaking i done a lot of thing, be in good or bad. But mostly bad things. One thing i need to praise god that is he never fail to encourage me, he's always being there for me no matter how busy am i. I can't say that god doesn't care for me, god's busy with his stuff, NO. This is not the way, the fact is im busy with my own stuff and doesn't even care about god. This year, i have been overslept finding excuses not to attend services and etc... it's not a good thing i really need to change my attitude and i should pay more attention too and be focus. I really should stop fooling around. The Lord blesses us with peace his blessed peace. In our time of trouble seek out the Lord in times of joy forget Him that he is ever present. These are the promises you hang unto when the going gets rough…these are the words that strengthen you. He tells us He is crowning us with loving kindness and tender mercies. His word tells us He will never leave us nor forsake us. What have we to fear? He loves us and keeps us safe. Remember our help comes from the Lord. He is fighting on our behalf. Be sure this is true, start praising Him for His keeping power. I thanks god for letting me to score with my good grades and get in GEYLANG METHODIST SECONDARY SCHOOL. I really glad that i came in to Geylang Methodist church, people there's have been always helping me and encourage me especially MEI SHI she never fail to give up on me even there's time i made her til very mad. She's always been there helping me and guiding me. I really need to thanks her a lot for helping me through this whole year. Thanks lord for letting me to know her. I believed everything do happened for a reason. Study, i have been telling myself that i need to study yes study, but i didn't done anything at all yes lack of determination and stuff. I must really study hard next year, argh . N'level and O'level math i having next year, i really need to buck up so that i could go to junior college, i REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT TO GET IT. Quite disappointed in myself, told myself next year will be a better year got to buck on my studies and relationship with god, amen. :)
Hey this sweet little couple, you guys better last long man! :) You both are such a cute and lovely couple man. OPPS, im sorry i only got this few photos in my computer so yup. Here's a small dedication for you guys. I believe you guys went through a lot this one whole month uh. There's up and down during the relationship and just a blink of eye a month has for you guys. During this month you guys are the only couple that are sweet and without quarrel. CONGRATS(: I wish you guys really can last long and a blessed marriage in future. WAHAHAH...
Rena and Yujie I wish you guys can last and no more misunderstanding anymore. I know there's a lot of misunderstanding this few days but im glad that we sort it out and clear it. No more anything misunderstanding since i left him and yum. I guess im the one who causes those trouble for being so paranoid . Well, it's over. I wish you guys all the best in future and good luck.
RELATIONSHIP.
I guess im really a failure uh in relationship, i cant last a relationship at all. I want a relationship that can last yes last. I doesn't want a perfect relationship. I just want someone who I can act silly with, someone who treats me well and loves being with me. A relationship with trust, with care, with patience, with joke and no envy. This time around i thought that Bryan Wong was the perfect guy for me and i though we could last but i didn't thought that such thing will happened, kind of disappointed. Actually is totally can. At first, starting of our relationship we were so sweet and i keep thinking that he's a really nice guy. He paint me a blue sky, and go back and turned it to rain. We've a lot thing in common e,g religious, hobbies, primary school and etc...I realised our relationship from the start was a mistake. It's really a big mistake for us to be together, i feel like a sinner now. Both of us been quarrel stuff over again and again , yet both of us paperover the cracks. Somehow, i still miss him so much that i even dreamt of him.
Most importantly, move on. I am feeling so much better after having some form of closure in terms of my relationship. Even though that answer was something which I've never ever expected, I guess its better for me this way.
Perhaps, the best way to appreciate something is to be without it for awhile.
But after we broke up. We ignore each other and try to pretend the other person doesn't exist, but deep down, we know it wasn't supposed to end like this.
I really miss those past, those memories, those fun we once had. Reading our past conversations. Memories. Beautifully written. When the truth is told, everything else seems like a lie. I wanna forget about the past. Why is it so beautiful? Why did it become a contrast of present?
FRIENDSHIP.
Obviously, i wont forgotten patricia! Almost 9years of friendship and stuff. I think we been through a lot during this few years. Even though after primary school, we went to different secondary school but im glad that we still keep in touch and contacting each other and stuff. But i really hope one day you will come to my church, i really want to invite you to jesus christ, i know it's abit hard but i wont give up. Seeing each other grow up year by year. HAHA, next year N'lvl already uh, better study hard and no more playing around hor. HAHA. We should start studying together soon. WELl, im so glad to have you, xoxo.
Yes, i wont miss up the rest like Wan Ling, Jaimee, Pamela, Natalie, Daren, Matthew and etc.. I cant name out all... alot. I really want to thank wanling, although i have transfer school and we didnt contact as much as the past but i will never forget you. You still help me celebrate my birthday this year and stuff. I didnt even wish yours... feel so bad. Jaimee, you're the one who never fail to make me laugh and your cute little face. HAHA. SAME here goes to you. Even though i transfer school already, we still meet up study together shop together and you even came to help me to celebrate for me and woke up early just for me. I really need to thanks you both girls alot, WANLING and JAIMEE, 3years of friendship and counting. And esp my netball mates even though we've drifted due to some reason and misunderstanding but i really miss those time and those surprise you girls have give me during my birthday. I want back the past.
CONCLUSION.
2011 is a average nice, but i hope 2012 will be a better year for me of course. Hereby, I wished everyone MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR here. :D
Once 2012 start, Chinese new year will be around the corner soon. CANTTT WAITTTTT!!!!:)
