still the same

I still miss you Z .
I know it's over and it never really began , but in my heart it was so real .
HMMM , i didn't update my blog like week already . WELL . hmmm , thursday i went out with faustina , pei hua they all to play pool and dinner . Wake up and 11 quickly change bath and rushed down to aljunied ask parents for money than go punggol to meet lester and faustina to have our lunch than went doubty guat to meet them go some hotel to play pool all that than shop do penicure all that than someerset 313 shop again than around 8plus go inter to find dad than fetch me home ard 9 reach home 9plus . FRIDAY nvr went out whole day stay home . LOL . Sat wake up 10.15 than rush to meet ting rui he say meet 11 than i rush lor than i reach 11.15 waited for him for 15 minute he 11.30 than came down . WLAUUU , girl wait guy -.- than went IT fair with eugene than go watch karate kid with gabriel , kai xiang they all include jaimee . Than after that went shop with jaimee than service all those . Than sunday went out with yong hao they all went to orchard cine watch killer , LOL play pool all that . Yesterday kite flying and went watch KILLER AGAIN . SAME CINEMA AND SAME HALL . (Y) Than went meet parents dinner .
Today , went elvin house to talk eat slack . order pizze come eat nice . Actually wwe plan too go ECP but mess up due to stupid rain . LOL . ALL THAT , fun ! looking forward tmr for JUSTIN COOKING HOKKIEN NOODLE FOR US EAT . LOL

I love Jesus

Hey im finally back . Sorry for MIA for 1weeks due t lazzness uh D:
I guess im fine with it already . Thanks those who concern abt me , care abt and talked to me . Thanks to my church friend and some outide friends alot .
I guess no point moaning since it's over . I guess i'll let him g find his happiness yeah ? :D
Well , i shall not bother him anymore . I will go find my happiness and he will find his . WELL .
I guess he also dun really bther me anymore and care .
I wish t be his friend but des he willing ? I guess no , i really dun bother anymore well (:
I will promise what i say- Highness
I wouldn't get into a r/s yeah . (:
I admit yes sometimes i will still think and miss about him yes i will what can i do ? Nothing right ? :D
HMMM , i cant really remember what i do last weekdays i nly can rmb weekends . HAHA .
Last Saturday was my grandpa 49days so d those thing til around 12 than uncle treat everyone buffet . Thanks uncle . Than around 1 went katong mall t do thing with parents than went Parkway parade shop . I went to buy a pair of shes and charile&keith and went cotton on but clothes , mummy is so good he willing to buy for me well :D
Sunday went out go some games at geylang methodist church so went there playplay cool than take cab to tuition than after tuitin went Tampinese to meet sherann than slack tkae neo print went eat sakae sushi reach home around 9plus almost get scolding :/
Monday work and slack do nothing actually .
Yesterday went to Upper east coat Kew drive to fetch Jaimee while waiting her at Bus Stop . A sport car drive pass than he alight and approach me and ask where's the expo i pointed there then he say he couldn't find his manager call me lend my phone to him so i was s afraid i quickly clled Jaimee after that i pretend dunno he still at there wait so bo bian lend him my phone than he called to his number . Awhile later he text me talk alot crap . I know it got deceived WTF RIGHT ? Jaimee's uncle drive us t tanah merah mrt station as it rain heavily D: so train t tampinese went T1 SASA jaime brough her thing til no money after that went to the free SHULTER BUS to waait for Faustina and we went to ikea . Sorry lester we are late he reach half hour ealier than us than Elvin came so went eat eat . Not really nice but quite ex -.- WELL .
Than after eat went t Ikea walk walk slack arund 3 take cab to ECP for BBQ .
Didn't know WenXin was there too quite surprised anw . It's awesome damn nice . Arund 8plus my dad came fetch me and jaimee fetch her home . We so envy her lor . Her grandparents house five stoery OMG ??!! kay , nvm . well . ENDED . she's richh :D
Jesus. ♥
I believe in god , the father almighty , maker of heaven and earth , and in Jesus Christ , his son our lord , who was conceited by the holy spirit , born of the virgin Mary , suffered under pontius pilate , was crucified , died and buried ; He descended into hell , on the third day he rose from dead; he ascended into heaven , and sits at the right hand of god the father almighty;from thence he shall come to judge the living dead . I believe the holy spirit;the holy universal church , the communion of saints; the forgiveness of sins; the resurrection of the body , and the life everlasting .

Dear boy ,

11th ,
i still love you .
I still remember every promises you told me and promises me .
I still remember you say you want change taht hongster never die , tiongim is a lie . You say you want me to know that tiongxim isn't a lie & hongster can die .
I still remember this message you told me . I do want to last with you , i'll try my best to be the best boyfr i can be alright :)
I still remember : I'll always be yours karhwee .
I still remmember that you told me that you learning to trust me . & you'll turst me .
You told me before that you should ne the one cring me . You've always be my side! You've never left me before .
You told me before that in a r/s is two way . If i dont tell you what's happening how would you going be with me thru ups and downs ? You told me that i remind you of your ex , you're not making a comparisons . You told me this : i want you to know , i love you for who you are , not cause you remind of my ex . I love you , for what you are
:)
Once , you tld me that you wanna be here with me thru ups and downs . You told me that im the 2nd girl you truly love . You once told me you will love me with your biggest heart .
This what you told me too . Baby , i know that i love you alot . I'll be here with you whenever you need me . Just tell me . Alright ? I really hope , you'll tell me what 's happening & stuff . Idw to be your boyfriend in title . I want to by your side to help you along & support you thru ups & downs. I can't describle how much i love you . Don't let me go bi . I wish i could mee you :( baby . I'll wait til when you'll tell me automatically what's troubling you . I want to hold your hand & be with you . Whenever sad , happy , angry . Iloveyou so much . Baby , don't let me go . Don't fall for another guy :( You're mine now . This you what you told me in may 25th .
On 30th of may
You asked me to start again , start anew . Let's confide in each together alright . I said okay . From that day onwards i start to love you alot . I put my heart and soul on you . Well .

Ask yourself you lie me did i say anthing i didn't i say nvr & forget it . I didn't ask you for break . Yes , i admit i do told you that my feeling for you is fading away because of things . I do want to break with you taht past few days after my friends convice me telling me i didn't i trust myself and you that no matter what we could over come it . But after few days everyhting is clear and sort out my feeling for you is overwhelming and it getting greater and greater . I do love you alot alot from then onwards . Do you know how i feel when last night you send me that beak message ? My heart really shattered into pieces it really hurt alot . You'll never understand how much tears i shed for you , i miss you D:
after all i still told myself , i cant forget you .
i'm feeling super down now a days . i need a break now ):
all i wish was to see you smiling and i swear that your smile make my day .
i seriously miss those jokes and laughter you gave me .
i want it back but can i ?
i want you back like before . i dont want you to be wif others .
i know i'm selfish keep pulling you back to me .
But i know that will never happens . whenever i cry , you wipe my tears away .
you touched me by those warm hug you gave me .
but that wasnt all i want . i want ONLY YOU .
my heart only belongs to you . unless there's someone who can show me that he love me more than i love you . but my feelings wont change till th day i break down .
everyday crying over you .
i know its stupid , but to me its worth .

Well , i know that your cg leader don't want you to have stead because he don't want you to neglect god . I know this affect you alot . I know i know . I willing to wait . I know you want centered r/s . I know your faith in god is strong whereelse mine is weak . I'm trying to closer to the god . I'll try to be steonger in my spiritually level and i'll bringgod closer to us . Im searching my heart . My feeling for you is real . It remind me of all the best . Well love is a strong feeling , not a passing feeling you can't lose it .

Im sorry that i did hurt you did pass few days treating you so cold im very very sorry cant you just give me a chance ? Everyone do mistake and deserve a chance why not me ? :/ I really really love you . You hurt me miserably . It's very terrible . The hurt you gave me is more than the hurt i lose my grandpa can you imagine how hurtful is it?

Whenever i saw those movie ticket in my wallet i will miss those memory time we been together ,



If i've a choice , i would want everything to turn to how it was when we just started .
i would hold you close and tight to me .
all i ever wanted is just give me one chance for both me and you .
i promise this chance given wont be drain.
i would cherish the one chance you give and show you all my love .
really i love you, be mine again will you ?






Tuesday went out wth jaimee . Whole day shooping .
Farrer park(City Square mall) -> Orchard road -> Far East Plaza -> Orchard Ion -> Somerset 313 -> City hall and LASTLY marina square have our dinner at Pariss restuarant (Y) Buffet was awesome .